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favour is deceitful, and beauty is vain; but a woman that feareth the Lord, she shall be praised.
- Proverbs 31:30 /

i thought really long and hard if i should blog down my thoughts about camp, because even if i dont blog, so many people out there are already saying how great it was. as i look back at my posts, i never fail to blog about camp after we leave the 4 walls of winsfield, nus, sss or now downtown east.

blogged 12 times, yet among these 12 posts, there were times that the posts were just there to be admired, just there for show, just there to remind myself that god has been so good and yet, i've taken for granted the many chances that god gave me the past 6 years.

but now, this camp is different. my 13th camp, and the best one so far (:

i had a mixture of emotions and feelings throughout camp. exhilaration, anger, burdened, disappointments, familiarity and finally joy :D joy just to be in the father's presence. the past few camps were not set off on the right note. but doing the precamp devotions this time made everything right on the first day! god spoke to me in the first p&w and even though it was hurting, i knew that there were things i had to let go. areas that wasnt making god proud of me; areas that made me compromise on his standards; areas that proved to be a huge stumbling block to my inner growth.

great teachings, great p&w, great fellowship, great atmosphere but above all, a great god (:

the second day made me realise the area i needed to grow in the most, the spirit of excellence. how can i even be a qualified leader when im not seeking to do my best in everything god has placed in my hand? and on that very night, i told god, i may not be the best in everything compared to the people around me (often, i look at others and think about why was i chosen when im not as good as ________ or __________.) but because you choose me, i will choose to give my best even if it means sacrificing things that i like.

the third day's p&w, god caught me totally off guard although i was physically tired and was not in full form. child-like faith. child-like faith, my child (: teaching by shirls blew me away like how it did when she first shared in clm. the african video, shown for the third time, touched my heart again. the infinite sea of ppl standing praising and worshipping god wasnt a dream, it wasnt fiction, IT WAS REAL. and its happening. i can just imagine that happening in heaven. someone in the cg asked, ' how can the people at the back hear the speaker?' i dont know. but i know spirit touches spirit! the people are praising and worshipping god for who he is, not because of the speaker's words or voice! it was amazing.

at the end, im just glad that god spoke. he cut off the sharp thorns, re-prune so that more areas can grow and lastly, affirmed so that i can continue to run fast and far.

and im really proud of my cg! how we've grown higher in our worship for god, deeper in our fellowship with one another, i dont have to imagine, i know that as we go back to our daily lives, we will be wider in our influence for jesus (:

finally, shirls put it simply - the time has come that the four walls of the church must be broken down, people must be sent out. as much as we enjoyed camp, there’s a pressing need to reach out to lost souls.

'when the game is over, it all goes back into the box.' the game is ending real soon. have you made your move for god?