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favour is deceitful, and beauty is vain; but a woman that feareth the Lord, she shall be praised.
- Proverbs 31:30 /

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god, i commit ALL the cannot happens into your hands. may it never ever happen because if it does, you know the consequences will be so bad. if only the cannot happens dont happen, that would be awesome (:

3 less hectic days, 3 hectic days.
bday rushes and farewells.


oh man god, show me how to love like you have love me.
how i wish i was the one.


it is not of human right
to stare not fight
while broken nations dream
open up our eyes, so blind
that we might find
the Mercy for the need

singin Hey Now
fill our hearts with your compassion
hey Now
as we hold to our confession

it is not too far a cry
to much to try
to help the least of these
politics will not decide
if we should rise
and be your hands and feet

woah-oh-oh,
god be the solution
woah-oh-oh
we will be Your hands and be Your feet

higher than a circumstance
your promise stands
your love for all to see
higher than protest line and dollar signs
your love is all we need

only you can mend the broken heart
and cause the blind to see
erase complete the sinners past
and set the captives free
only you can take the widows cry
and cause her heart to sing
be a father to the fatherless
our savior and our king
we will be your hands, we will be your feet
we will run this race for the least of these
on the darkest place, we will be your light
we will be your light

we will run
we will run
we will run with the solution

'the world doesnt need more money, the world doesnt need more oil, the world doesnt need more food. the world needs more forgiveness..'

the world needs god as their solution. SA needs god as their solution (:


'repentance isnt about feeling bad/regretful. it isnt even about feeling sorry only. repentance might involve all this but above all, repentance is about a change in decision. .. turning away from what is bad, pursuing what is good, walking in that direction till the end.' (:

its time repentance isnt just about saying sorry. i've said enough sorries to god. let me have a change in my decision, mindset, perspective and most imptly, conviction. because my conviction will allow me to run till the end. when PJ was talking about the marathon illustration, i was telling god, i dont ever think i will have the stamina or the mental and physical ability to run a marathon in my life, but i want to run the spiritual marathon for you to the best that i know how to. i might fall, i might get distracted but at the end, i want to reach for the end victoriously with you! i want the certificate of commendation, not the certificate of participation :D

yay! and i thank god joane joined us today! (: we are on our way to FIFTEEN saints for god!


as i was walking home from the 162 bus stop after our gathering last night, i started to pray (: i dont know why and the scene of me praying and walking was unthinkable in the past. probably because i didnt have that kind of maturity yet.

i started to pray for the cg, praying for the individuals instead of writing down in my prayer journal. the seemingly long and slow walk home gave me time to ponder over issues, encouragement and testimonies the group had and will have if we continue to grow as one and individually (:

at the end, god was good because he reminded me through clm and my thoughts that i was called to lead the group not because of my abilities, but because i have a willing heart and im willing to rely on him. as the group continues to grow, i pray for courage to speak hard truths into people's lives so that they can grow; wisdom to lead the group and to speak or do the right things at the right time; anionting to lead the group to greater heights, not just 11 j1s, but more because my god is a BIG god :D

let discipleship and outreach surround my daily life such that the moment i slacken off, i will be uncomfortable because its part and parcel of my life. rather, ITS WHAT MY LIFE IS ABOUT!

LOVES <3

im so proud of you! its more than change, i thank god that i am able to be given this privilege of being part of your life transformation

thanks for being such a sincere sheep, its your growth that has encouraged me since the day you became part of our family (:

touched by your change :D nothing mattered more than that night's talk and the increase depth in our relationship! seeing you grow make me smile. you are one sheep that has made me pull my hair to its ends but i thank you for your non-stop encouragements that really made my day

my dears, fears and inhibitions aside, lets go ALL OUT for god yups! (: i pray that god will continue to use me to impact and influence your lives as you gals consecrate your lives to continue to win SA and complete the GC in your lifetime (: whatever, whenever, i promise to avail myself to you and to teach you whatever i know because you are the ones god has given to me. thanks for loving me and growing with me since the day you knew me.

i thank god for this privilege,responsibility and friendship he has crafted and i promise to do my best for you :D


i thought really long and hard if i should blog down my thoughts about camp, because even if i dont blog, so many people out there are already saying how great it was. as i look back at my posts, i never fail to blog about camp after we leave the 4 walls of winsfield, nus, sss or now downtown east.

blogged 12 times, yet among these 12 posts, there were times that the posts were just there to be admired, just there for show, just there to remind myself that god has been so good and yet, i've taken for granted the many chances that god gave me the past 6 years.

but now, this camp is different. my 13th camp, and the best one so far (:

i had a mixture of emotions and feelings throughout camp. exhilaration, anger, burdened, disappointments, familiarity and finally joy :D joy just to be in the father's presence. the past few camps were not set off on the right note. but doing the precamp devotions this time made everything right on the first day! god spoke to me in the first p&w and even though it was hurting, i knew that there were things i had to let go. areas that wasnt making god proud of me; areas that made me compromise on his standards; areas that proved to be a huge stumbling block to my inner growth.

great teachings, great p&w, great fellowship, great atmosphere but above all, a great god (:

the second day made me realise the area i needed to grow in the most, the spirit of excellence. how can i even be a qualified leader when im not seeking to do my best in everything god has placed in my hand? and on that very night, i told god, i may not be the best in everything compared to the people around me (often, i look at others and think about why was i chosen when im not as good as ________ or __________.) but because you choose me, i will choose to give my best even if it means sacrificing things that i like.

the third day's p&w, god caught me totally off guard although i was physically tired and was not in full form. child-like faith. child-like faith, my child (: teaching by shirls blew me away like how it did when she first shared in clm. the african video, shown for the third time, touched my heart again. the infinite sea of ppl standing praising and worshipping god wasnt a dream, it wasnt fiction, IT WAS REAL. and its happening. i can just imagine that happening in heaven. someone in the cg asked, ' how can the people at the back hear the speaker?' i dont know. but i know spirit touches spirit! the people are praising and worshipping god for who he is, not because of the speaker's words or voice! it was amazing.

at the end, im just glad that god spoke. he cut off the sharp thorns, re-prune so that more areas can grow and lastly, affirmed so that i can continue to run fast and far.

and im really proud of my cg! how we've grown higher in our worship for god, deeper in our fellowship with one another, i dont have to imagine, i know that as we go back to our daily lives, we will be wider in our influence for jesus (:

finally, shirls put it simply - the time has come that the four walls of the church must be broken down, people must be sent out. as much as we enjoyed camp, there’s a pressing need to reach out to lost souls.

'when the game is over, it all goes back into the box.' the game is ending real soon. have you made your move for god?

i took AGES to get this down. blogger is SERIOUSLY SLOW. its not my lappie's fault.