Wednesday, March 01, 2006
i havent blog for long because im frustrated. im irritated. im pissed! bleaghs. everythings gone wrong. i've never felt so down and so lost in my 16 yrs of life can. and i mean everything! decisions and adaptations are so hard to make. why do i have to adapt to so many things at one time? why do i have to make decision and not be sure of them. sure. i must have faith. faith in the decisions im making. faith in my daddy. i do not want to be like a wave, tossed in the sea, i want to stand firm and say, YES. i want to go there.
but, i cant.
its hard when there's no one arnd to empathise. its hard when there's no one to talk deep down to. sure, there are friends arnd to play and chat with. but friends have their own life and friends get busy. its even worse when everything arnd you changes and the good friends whom you were close with are now further away than before.
god, i dunno why im in this predicament now, i believe you have your plans for me, i know you know whats right and whats good for me. give me the strength to carry on and the wisdom to make the right choice because i want to glorify you. let me have faith in you and in the decision i make. dont let me drift away from you lord because that is not what i want. i want to be in this race eternally and thats why lord, i need that boost of strength from you. thank you lord(:
I see a happy ending/ 1:31 PM
la femme
ens ; 06S02 ; 12/07/1989 ; SAcg ; paiis ; EJS
