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favour is deceitful, and beauty is vain; but a woman that feareth the Lord, she shall be praised.
- Proverbs 31:30 /

"o lord, i have heard your voice and was afraid. o lord, our lord.you have stooped to honour me to be your servant. no man takes this honour upon himself save he that is called of god. you have ordained me to be your messenger to them that are stubborn of heart and hard of hearing. the responsibility is not mine but yours. you have said "you shall go to all that i send you and whatever i command you, you shall speak." who am i to argue with you?or to question your sovereign choice. the decision is not mine but yours. so be it lord. your will not mine be done.

well do i know,you lord. that as i honour you,you will honour me.help me therefore to make this solemn vow to honour you in all my future life and labours,whether by gain or loss,by life or death,and then keep that vow unbroken while i live.

i beseech you,give me eyes to detect the presence of the enemy; give me the understanding to distinguish the false friend from the true. give me vision to see and courage to report what i see faithfully. make my voice so like your voice that even the sick sheep will recognise it and follow you.

lord jesus. i come to you for spiritual preparation. lay your hands on me.anoint me with the oil of a new testament prophet. help me to remember that im a prophet and not a promoter, not a religious manager but a prophet. let me never become a slave to crowds. heal my soul of earthly ambitions, and deliver me from the itch of publicity. save me from the bondages to things. let me not waste time puttering around the house. deliver me from overeating or oversleeping. teach me self-discipline that i may be a good soldier of Jesus Christ.

i accept hard works and small rewards in life. i ask for no easy place. i shall try and be blind to the things that could make life easier. if others seek the smooth path, i shall try and take the hard without judging them too harshly. i shall expect opposition and try and take it quietly when it comes. o lord. let me not forget in hours of honour that im unworthy of the least of your mercies.

and now, o lord my god, i consecrate my remaining days to you. let them be many or few, as you will.Let me stand before the great or minister to the poor and lowly, that choice is not mine, and i would not influence it if i could. im your servant to do your will, and that will is sweeter to me than position or riches or fame, and i choose it above all things in heaven and earth. though im chosen by you and honoured by a high and heavenly calling, let me never forget that im a woman with all the natural faults and passions that plagued the race of man. i pray you therefore, my lord and my redeemer, save me from myself,and from the injuries that i may do myself while trying to be a blessing to others. fill me with your power by the holy spirit, and i will go in your strength and tell of your righteousness, even yours only. i will spread abroad the story of redeeming love while my mortal powers endure.

then, dear lord, when im old and weary and too tired to go on, have a place ready for me above, and make me to be numbered with your saints in glory everlasting."

and that my lord. is the cry of my heart. (: