Monday, October 18, 2004
arghx.
i'm sho disappointed wif my marks..bleahx..
my physics was de moz disappointing lorhhs..haiz..wadz more wif de stoopid chi paper 1..face it man..i'm juz nort dat gud as i think in all my subj..
sumtimes..life juz doesnt go der wae we wan it to be..i mean.hai.i dun understand alot of things arnd me..and i dun even wan to bother about dem..accounted my life ter joy lers..and i feel i am falling..falling further and further awae..de enthusiam ish juz nort dere lers..dunno whether anyone can feel it..gawd..why are we in a wrld lyk dis..
mebe u dun understand me..hahahs..why do i even expect u to understand wen u dun even see how i go thru it..spiritual warfare..physical warfare...haax..i noe i'm equipped..but it juz does nort seem enuff..everi tym i see de leaders dancing and singing wif overflowing joy on stage ritex..i kanort help but think to myself..will i be as close to god lyk dem..or will i fall awae as soon as i think..
i think it juz pays to pray and guard my heart.moreover..itz active prayer dat counts.nort passive prayer.
I see a happy ending/ 2:30 AM
la femme
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